I felt like telling him… I started screaming: “STOP BREATHING MY AIR!!! STOP IT! STOP THIS SHIT!!!… STOP SCREAMING AT ME! CAN’T YOU REALIZE?! CAN’T YOU SEE YOU’RE NOT WORTH, NOT A PENNY!” than suddenly I felt better and lowered my voice:” you’re not who you think you are! How I thought you’re… stop overestimating your self! Stop thinking you’re the best! You’re too good for the world! … STOP YOUR CRITICISM! Don’t scream at me! You have no right! You had no right and you’ll never have it! How do you think you are?! Can’t you realize you’re down? Sitting on the floor… as numb as never? I don’t even know why I thought I was beneath you? Wow… I was really stupid… I now realize that lower than you there can be NO ONE! You’re like the bottom of the pit… from you I can only go up… Unlike you… who is bounded to this place… to your little perfect world … GESSUS! WAKE UP! SEE AROUND YOU! Look at all the people who are around you! So what if I lost you? Do you think I still care? Well … I DON’T! You can’t affect me anymore! You can’t juggle with my feelings! You’re in the past… maybe you’ll feel the same way sometime… somehow… somewhere… or maybe not! I don’t know… but what I do know is that you can’t hold me down! What if I fall? I’ll rise higher… and higher… and higher… until I reach the light… Until I won’t be seen, but remembered! You? You’ll be here… waiting… and waiting for… I don’t know another one like me? Doesn’t matter…. they’ll all realize you’re not worth it! It’s you curse! Until you’ll realize your problem and open your eyes you’ll berry this curse!”
The boy was looking at me strangely. Maybe he thought I was crazy, but than he realized what I was talking about… what I meant… he started to smile, gave me a goodbye kiss and left….
